just big papa again...

on monday they figured out that it was fungal pneumonia and starting treating him for that...
they have bumped his oxygen intake up from 4 to 10...
his oxygen level dropped into the 50s last night...
they put him on the bi-pap for a while to get him leveled out...
they are giving him morphine to keep him calm and help his breathing because he get's freaked out when he can't breathe...
chest x-rays show no improvement...
they gave him a breathing treatment this afternoon when i was there and his oxygen level was in the mid 90s throughout and for about 20 minutes after that...
then his oxygen dropped to low 70s...
bumped his oxygen intake up from 10 to 15 and put a mask on him instead of just the nose tubes...

that's where we stand right now...

just nine...

it has been almost nine years...

i can't remember your laugh
i used to have it in my head
i could recall it whenever i needed to
but now
now it's gone

i can't remember your voice
i used to have it in my head
i could recall it whenever i needed to
but now
now it's gone

i can't remember your touch
i used to have it in my head
i could recall it whenever i needed to
but now
now it's gone

i am losing you all over again
you are fading away...

just big papa...

so here's the latest on dad...

on thursday they went into his lungs and pulled out some of the 'gunk' so they could test it and see what they are up against... he's been in the icu as a precaution since then... it'll take probably about 72 hours to get the results back... that puts the results coming in on sunday and we don't really think that's gonna happen... so hopefully on monday they'll be able to be more accurate with how they treat him...

he's coughing up a lot of nastiness... he's on oxygen but get's winded very easily... sometimes it's even hard for him to talk... so we're kind of in a holding pattern until they get the test results back...

i'll continue to do my best to keep everybody updated... thanks for all the positive energy coming dad's way...

if you feel like sending a card or email for dad, here's my info

136 ridgecrest road
lancaster, ky 40444

jbreier@statebeautysupplylex.com

i'll make sure he gets it...

much love

just superman...

sorry if i haven't personally contacted you about this, but here's what's going on...

after dad's chemo yesterday (tuesday) he collapsed in the parking lot of the cancer center... they called 911 and got him to the hospital... while in the er they had to put him on a ventilator... his heart had NOT stopped... he was STILL breathing... but it was to the dangerous point and they did what they had to do... they did an x-ray on his head (because they weren't sure if he had hit his head when he passed out) and found everything was ok... that hard breier head is good for something... they did a cat scan to check his lungs... he has pneumonia... they also checked to be sure that a blood clot hadn't gotten loose and gone to his lungs... there was no clot... he has been icu and on a ventilator since last night... spoke to the drs this morning and he is getting a cardiologist involved... there is some sort of enzyme that is elevated when there is a heart related event that was high this morning... it was ok last night but just a smidge high this morning... once we get all the pieces put together we can get him off this damn ventilator... he wakes up every once in a while (usually when a nurse is poking at him) and he kinda seems to get what is going on... although he's still pretty out of it... so that's what's up... asking for good thoughts, prayers (if ya got em) and hell - i'll take a snake handler with a couple of dead chickens if it'll help... i'll keep ya updated as often as i can...

and please, while sending all this positive energy dad's way, please divert some of that for my friend megan (and the entire ohnheiser) clan who lost her father this past saturday...

much love

just maddie...

happy 3rd birthday to my sweet, sweet puppy...
madeline
maddie mae
shit-brain
puppy
nubbins
devil dog
moose
maddimus


she has grown from this...























a little baby that you could cover completely with a washcloth...

to this...



















50 pounds of lovins...

she's scared of new shoes, new tires and my 90 year old grandfather... will go crazy jumping out of her skin if a rabbit even thinks about entering her yard but leaves the two frogs alone that live in our back yard... she's scared of her own shadow and won't go into the laundry room if we have put a laundry basket in (what she thinks is) an odd position... but i'd like to think that if somebody ever tried to hurt me, ames (her favorite mama), or her big brother pete...



















she would tear them apart...

happy birthday sweet madeline... you are 21 in dog years today so live it up!!!

my trip to the cemetery by little jesse breier…

so of course i went to see loyd today…

i sat with him for just a little bit… i was seconds away from bursting into flames so i decided to find some shade somewhere… i wandered around for a little while until i ended up at the very back of the cemetery sitting under a tree enjoying the shade and peace and quiet…

remember this one from november???

well here she is now… after what seemed like 27 months of rain…

and then i shit my pants…

i think i interrupted a baby snake making session... as soon as one of them picked up their head, stuck out their tongue and said "i'm going to eat your face" i decided it was time to say thanks to everybody there and go home...

just money

can you believe that my email marked this as spam???

From: Malik Hakim Esq, [info@hulasite.com]
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MALIK & ASSOCIATES
TEL: +60 17 2950997
I am Malik Hakim Esq, a Malaysian lawyer. A deceased client of mine, that shares same last name with you, died as a result of a heart-related condition on March 12th 2007. His heart condition leading to his death was due to death of all members of his family in tsunami disaster in Sumatra, Indonesia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ 2004_Indian_Ocean_earthquake.
I have been unsuccessful in locating the relatives for over last 4 years now. You can reach me for more information as my late client left behind a deposit of $17,500,000.00 Million Dollars.
Best Regards,
Barr. Malik Hakim Esq,

I'M RICH!!!